MY STORY

 

(The one that got me here, anyway...)


I used to live in a prison of feelings. I struggled, felt sad & lonely A LOT, for a looong time.

I grew up with a great deal of instability — divorcing and re-marrying parents, moving to a new state every few years, daily emotional turmoil in my home, and facing massive stress and uncertainty from the multiple diagnoses of both mental illness & cancer in my immediate family.

Childhood photo of Beth and her 3 siblings sitting together on a large rock.

The third of four siblings — “the quiet one” — I always felt different from my family and everyone around me.

People often said to me (with a judgmental tone): “You’re too sensitive…You’re so emotional…”, so I believed something was wrong with me because I FEEL so much. And because I also believed it was my job to make others comfortable, I was constantly adjusting who I was to meet their needs, remaining silent in my own.

My nervous system shifted into survival mode pretty early on in life, so by the time I reached my late twenties, I felt substantial fear and anxiety on a daily basis. Incredibly stuck emotionally, not feeling safe to express myself, I’d become deeply disconnected from my voice (literally & figuratively) and my life dreams.

I’d learned to doubt my own Intuition, and my self-worth was at the bottom of the barrel.

I NEVER FELT GOOD ENOUGH.

And by this point, had attracted multiple toxic partners and employers that seemed to thrive on validating that. I remember ceaselessly feeling “trapped” inside myself, aching to be free

Then in 2012, about halfway through my 12 years in Los Angeles, I took a leap that would change the course of my entire life.

Not long after my thirtieth birthday, I left my design job (where I was most def overworked and underpaid), ended my 4+ year relationship (basically a divorce), and moved out of our home into a studio apartment (pairing my life down to essentially a twin bed and a desk) — all in two weeks, like a domino effect.

I had no idea what was happening to me, or what I was going to do next.

I could physically feel something “awakening” inside of me — though I wouldn’t have used that word at the time. All I knew was something was causing me to feel a very strong pull to break free & explore life in a deeper way.

Beth outdoors in winter looking into the sunset

As fate would have it, barely six weeks later I was led to my first teacher, Carissa (a very gifted Medium), and she confirmed for me what I’d always known in my depths regarding my ability to feel.

Learning I’m an Empath was simultaneously the scariest & most relieving thing I’d EVER felt.

In this single meeting, I was being seen and acknowledged for who I am on every level.

Then BAM! I realized there was never anything wrong with me! I simply didn’t have the awareness of my spiritual & extra-sensory gifts, or the proper tools to really heal from my past.

Soon after, I was divinely led to my other most significant teacher, David. I dove all the way in with the healing work, studying the Breathwork & training with him — learning to re-connect with my Intuition and deeply heal myself from the inside.

Rapidly things changed because I surrendered so fully to that pull and the work that followed. No more depression, no more anxiety, stress or emotional overwhelm.

Beth outdoors in winter; head tilted back with eyes closed, laughing.

It was as if I’d come home… to myself. Life actually made sense, and I had never felt so alive and FREE.

(And coming home to that special little studio apartment — a.k.a. my absolute cocoon of healing! — nurtured my heart in unpredictable ways too!)

Then…

PLOT TWIST.

A couple years later I received yet another life-altering, strong (and scary) call to leave my design career altogether (which was now a full-blown business I co-owned), leave my cocoon in L.A., and go be a teacher & guide for others. Excuse me, whaaat?

(I would’ve laughed — actually probably gotten super awkward — if you told me 10 years ago this is what I’d be doing now!)

But I listened, and once again risked everything. I really pared my life down (to what fit in my car), left Los Angeles and went on the road to share this Sacred work.

Today, from my new home-base in the mountains of Northern New Mexico, I can say ferociously that:

I believe deeply in our right as humans to be FREE.

I’ve learned that true freedom comes from feeling our feelings, and feeling solid & connected within from unconditionally trusting ourselves and our Intuition (a.k.a. our Inner Compass).

We must explore ourselves, we must take risks, learn to love ourselves, and choose our healing… we must also surround ourselves with people who understand. (And it doesn’t necessarily mean you have to domino your life like I did!) ;)

It is my deepest knowing that we are each given a unique set of life circumstances through which we are being offered the opportunity to learn, grow, and come home to ourselves if we choose to.

Black and white image of Beth sitting at desk with laptop. Image on-screen read "CHOOSE LOVE".

I’m confident you finding your way here means you're ready to heal.

(Even if you feel a bit nervous right now.) Maybe you've been seeking, maybe you just began. Either way, you've felt a call, just like I did back in L.A., and the Universe conspired to lead you here.

 

You're exactly where you need to be, nerves and all.

It is my absolute passion and great privilege to help people heal so they can come home to their hearts too. To help other sensitive Ones understand their gifts, and to offer this community as a cocoon of healing to those in need of support.

(Think of it as your own cozy private online studio apartment!)

Choosing to explore me has been the best, most significant decision I've ever made, and I am deeply honored & humbled to unconditionally support you in choosing to explore YOU.

 
 

 
Our lives improve only when we take chances, and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.
— Walter Anderson